Starting this project, we began with studying the four keywords: Time, Body, Place, Identity. I made four mind maps in my book, before brainstorming ideas.
I initially came up with three ideas, and settled on one only to change it to another. I decided to focus on my mental health, specifically my PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder). This is because I decided to try and make my project somewhat scary, to attempt to get my point across of how terrifying it is to have PTSD. However, I decided to change the idea slightly, sticking with my mental health, but also looking at my Depression, OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), and Anxiety. The beginning of the project for me was directly looking at portraits. I did my first portraits in full colour, making them as vibrant as possible while still keeping them simple. After this, decided to have a look at comic strips, trying to get my message across using a story line. All of the comic consisted of events which has happened. I reconsidered my art style of being bright, and changed my work to be bold but monotonal. Most of the comics only had one colour in them, this was inspired by William Kentridge. I decided to do this in order to make the colour stand out, making the object, person or action look more important that the rest of the comic.
After doing the first few comics, I decided to look into animation. To start with, I decided to record pieces of my creating but later starting to make full, flowing animations using a flipbook tool. I made one, directing it toward my abuser, while the other was just of Nova (my comic character) crying.
From this, I then went on to make a full comic book, consisting of twenty-nine panels, with eighteen pages. The comic book explained the result of the abuse and my adjustment to high school and college.
Although, I initially was going to use the comic book as my final piece for the exhibition, I chose not to due to the amount of writing. I chose to change my idea, very close to the exhibition date.
I changed my idea a little, going back to the portraits that designed at the beginning and looking at a spookier look in them. They were inspired by Tim Burton and Edward Gorey, looking into a childish style of creation why still making them look fairly terrifying. Each portrait had a caption and a title. I decided to make one on each key part of my comic book, one based on my ex-counsellor, who blamed me for being a victim; one based on a teacher in high school, who threatened to get me sectioned; one based around my Depression and how it feels like I’m always wearing a mask, and how I wish I didn’t have to; another based around how society forces us to be a certain way or we’d be blame us for not trying; one on my Anxiety and how it feels to be scared all the time; one on OCD and being trapped in my brain while another is PTSD and shows how it feels to be getting ripped apart from the inside out; and finally, one on how bullying can cause suicide.
I chose to exhibit my work in a confined area in an attempt to make the portraits and the topic itself look slightly more horrible to try and make the viewer feel the terror that the portraits present.
In conclusion, this project has made me realise that my passion is both for digital art, and for illustration. Before this part of the course, I was unsure which area I would like to work in – now I know, I don’t want to work with oil paints, or acrylic, I will most likely work with pencil and digital art, as well as illustration which I have growing interests within.